why love is too suffocating ?

today i really got a big shock. when i heard it straight from his mouth, i feels like crying, but thanks God i've succesfully managed to act like i've ever heard something worst than this. he told me tht he'll move out soon. it's like a very big thunder roared in my head. i don't know whether he's just joking or not, but i'm almost 99% sure he's serious.

i don't know when he'll move. i wish tht i know so tht i'll tell him my feeling before he go. boy, i've been keeping this feeling deep inside my heart since 3 months ago. it's too hard to love you like this. sometimes you give me hopes, gives me confidence tht someday you'll be mine. but sometimes you also make tht hopes flying out to nowhere. i hate the fact tht i love you. it's too suffocating. i want you to be mine. but i know it's too impossible.

i realized some errors on my grammar above. I DON'T CARE. i'm just typing out my deepest feeling.

so boy, tell me. how to mend this broken heart ? should i forget you ?

i guess i can't. i'm so in love wid you.