I can't set my hopes too high because every 'Hello' ends with a 'Goodbye'.

the pic that i took yesterday :) boredom stroke! 

hello guys! how's your day ? mine was so-so. LOL. woke up super early today (05.30 am) with no particular reason. i couldnt put myself into sleep again so i went bath and revised Maths for awhile. but i ended up tweeting like mad. HAHA :D luckily i wasn't sleepy at all in the class. hehe. had so much fun with Wen Xin, Junaliz, Sabrina and Atikah during our stayback. we were mocking to each other, especially junaliz and me. and it was really embarassing. X.X but you know, THEY're very thick-skinned, whereas me? I'm the most innocent among them all. HAHA :D :D was freaking happy today cus there was no CCA from this week onwards till next year, i guess? HAHA :D 

currently chatting with my lovely daddy :) i miss him so much. alright, i just have to endure it for less than 2 more months :) hahaha :D

anyway, i'm freaking pissed off with my POA tutor, REALLY. yes she indeed has replied my msg, but then she never reply my last msg and she didnt turn up for today's tuition. walaoooo. 

chill. haish. OKAY GOTTA GO AND REVISE POA NOW!!! aarghh. bye :D 

" i've tried my best to comfort you. and part of my heart is hoping that we will change. argh dunno what i'm talking abouttttt!!! "

And I wonder if i ever cross your mind. For me, it happens all the time.

HELLO EVERYONEEE :D Happy Monday ^o^ 
well, i was really pissed off with my housemates last night (one guy & one girl). i was trying to sleep whereas they were happily watching TV with a super loud sound like nobody's business and i think...they were flirting with each other. i was damn irritated by them. zzzzz -_____- never mind. just forget about those 2 brainless people. HAHA :D 
so today school was really awesome and fun.. as always (: must thanked my 3E2 besties! without them, i'll really suffer from heart-attack (?) HAHA :D made Pizza during the F&N period and FINALLY that freaking bloody hell teacher has given us the topics for EOY exam. we've been waiting like forever. haish. 
and i sweaarrrrrr i really need to rush and buck up for my POA. i dun understand what's the latest chapter talking about! prepaid expenses....prepaid income... WALAOOEEE. headache! in addition to my suffer, my POA tutor is now nowhere to be seen. i've messaged her twice today to confirm the next tuition's date but she hasn't replied yet. PISSED. she better reply me tomorrow/tonight or else........... -__________-~  
hmmm today we've totally ignored her. well, for me, not totally, but almost? heehee. but i dunno whether what we've done is right or wrong. i'm just scared that we've misunderstood her or something....but hey, we've got a prove that she's lying liao. HAISH heck care. i'll just let this thing flow by itself. dun wanna interupt much eventhough i'm still freaking angry and upset with her lies. 
okay that's all for today! BYE :D

" i was freaking glad yet SUPER SHOCKED when you gave me that "act-cute" smile of yours today. i've never seen it before since i met you. thank you. honestly, you've really made my day today. and you've also commented on my Fb status after like hundreds years. HAPPY. that's the only word that can describe my feeling today. but still, i'm scared that those are just some part of your 'game'. you know what i mean. but i do hope it's NOT. i'm hoping for you to do the same thing tomorrow. "

There's no guarantee that someday you'll feel the same way as i do.

new pic that i took this morning. jobless day//. 

Helloooo :D Happy Sunday to all of you (: so whatcha doing today? mine, as usual, BORING. i woke up with a terrible stomachache this morning but thanks God i'm fine now (: 

so... as always, i had my Chinese tuition today and it was unexpectedly fun! my tutor is very pretty. maybe i shall take some pics with her someday and i promise i'll post it here. no worries. LOL XD 

after finished with my tuition, i felt like turning my lappie on, but then i realized that EOY is coming soon in 11 Days, so i put my lovely lappie aside and revised Maths. aarghh i feel so stressed out whenever i remember about this bloody hell EOY. why didn't they just let us being promoted to Sec 4 without having any exams? oh yeah it's freaking impossible!! HAHA :D 

in the middle of revising, suddenly i craved for Mos Burger, yet i was too lazy to go out so i asked my friend to buy it for me cus he was on the way back home from church. i was waiting like...2 hours? GEE GEE that time i felt like fainting cus there was nothing to eat. my homestay's food sucks to the core for every Sunday noon. dunno why. haish.. 

now i'm done with revising.... okay that's all for today. nothing special.. heehee. Bye bye (; 

" I don't understand why destiny allowed us to meet when there's NO WAY for us to be together. but what's the point of us meeting and knowing each other when it is YOU, who i am waiting, aching and crying for, whereas you're just sitting there, laughing with an unawareness that there's someone here, bloody WAITING for you. haish. and i still wonder if it's okay to cry over you, cus we were never anything special. I just thought we could be. "

i wonder if the things that remind me of you, will also remind you of me.

taken right before i posted this blog! HAHA. hate my bloodyhell new pimple -.-" 

hi! (: it's Saturday but i didn't go anywhere cus i gotta revise for the upcoming END OF YEAR EXAM. sounds really scary but the fact is, YES IT DOES SCARY. bleaarhh ~ X( 12 more days!! 

well, today's tuition has been cancelled cus my tutor said that his mother is hospitalized. awww i hope she'll get well soon :( 

I'm officially MISSING Nasi Ramas, a delicious food from my lovely hometown, Pekanbaru <3 i gotta wait for another 2 months and i swear, i will eat as much as possible right after i go back there. HAHA :D say hello to fats! 

in the morning, i was actually watching my long-waited new Korean drama named Playful Kiss, starred by Kim Hyun Joong! yess my prince who got a face to die for! heehee. but i feel super disappointed cus the story are quite ridiculous. I'm expecting more than that, really. so i've decided to stop watching it and go back to do my revisions. HAIX. =.= 

and to be honest, i really miss my so-called favourite uncle at the Swami Home (old folks' home) that we visited 2 days ago. i feel like visiting him again and i really have to, after the bloody EOY exam ended. i want to cheer him up. haish i miss you uncle! HAHA *random* 

so in conclusion, my whole Saturday morning till the afternoon were quite okayyy, until someone has ruined my "supposed-to-be-wonderful" evening. YES YOU BLOODY HELL B*TCH. can't you just stop pretending and lying to us? you're insane. REALLY. we hate you, and we DISLIKE you. feel like punching your face upside down. 

i'm so sorry for being rude and using some vulgarities, but really, haish. i bet you'll also do the same thing if you were ME. hmmm. :/ 

currently in LOVE with Jason Derulo and Ashley Tisdale's songs. BOTH OF THEM ARE AWESOME. i suggest you all to purchase or download their latest album :) 

 

okay. so that's all for today. Bye Bye :D~ 

" everytime i glanced through your pics on Facebook, my mind is telling me to stop hoping. it also telling me that i really got no chance to be with you. sadly, i trust my mind, cus you and me are too impossible to be true. but i dunno why, somewhere deep down in my heart, that 'hope' is still there. still there. haish. what if i need you, boy? what if i said i love you, boy? would you even try to save me or accept me, or would you find some lame excuses to reject me? i think i know your answer... "

when a woman loves, she loves for REAL.

okay, this is it! OUR 3E2 CLASS PHOTO!! it was taken yesterday at the old folks' home :))

hello :) finally it's FRIDAY. FINALLYYY OH FINALLYYYY. THANKS GOOODDD!! HAHAHA :D 
school today was awesome and fun, as always (: laughed a lot with Junaliz, Sabrina and Atikah during our stayback at school till 3.45 pm (: the weather was very scary. it was raining like...extraordinarily HEAVY with some super loud thunder. HORRIBLE! when we were on our way to the MRT Station, Junaliz, Sab and Atikah laughed at me like mad people cus i was holding an umbrella while there are actually shelters. i dunno wad -.-" aiyooo. hahaha but then i also laughed along with them. i really couldn't control my laughter that time, until i felt exhausted but still we were laughing until our train arrived. HAHA. 
the part that i hate the MOST is when the rain stopped just as I'M ARRIVED AT HOME SAFE AND SOUNDLY WITH WET UNIFORM, BAG AND SHOES. WHATTHEHELLLL. it's not fair! what an unlucky day ;( hmm my tuition's teacher has been waiting for me and i straight away study. such a good kid. HAHA :D okay that's all for today. i'm very tired now. gonna revise Bio. aarghhh -.- BYE :D~

" see? what i've told you? you haven't changed. you're still the same. the same old you, who really loves to play with my broken heart and make it more broken. dunno what other new way that you'll use to make my heart bleeds even more, EVERY SINGLE DAY. i've been telling myself, HEY COME ON WAKE UP AMELIA STOP HOPING, HE WONT EVEN NOTICE YOU CUS YOU MEANT NOTHING TO HIM. but i didn't do so. it's just too hard. such a foolish girl. but please, would you like to try to look into my heart? i swear, there won't be any other girls who will love you and treat you good like i do. truly, madly and deeply. haish.. i wonder when will these crazy things will ever end. "

that smile of yours, is indeed not only MINE.

hello helloooo :D hahaha!! currently raining heavily outside. i love this weather! HAHAHA. 
went to Swami Home (the old folks' home) with 3E2 today :) it was really a fun and memorable visit. interacted with those old folks has given me a new lesson to be learned. I REALLY SHOULD APPRECIATE MY LIFE NOW. so, there's this cute uncle who's very easy-going and friendly. he's my favourite uncle there!! HAHA. we had a long chat together as i was helping him in colouring a picture. he talked about his past-life and i almost shed my tears. he said that he is supposed to live in Thailand, but then his son sent him to the old folks' home after get married with a Thai woman. i swear HIS SON IS REALLY A BASTARD. haish -.-" i pity him. then he asked me where i came from, so i told him that i came from Indonesia. then he asked me to get married with Singaporean instead of Indonesian. wth ? HAHAHA he told me to marry on 22. what a freaking number. that's crazy! i guess it's still too early? HAHAHA. soo this is the so-called uncle that i've been talking about :) my bangs looked so DUH -.- and actually i asked for this cute drawing that was drawn by him :D

me and Junaliz are being a lesbos!! HAHA :D












hmm i'll post the whole class photo tmr, i guess? cus i dun have it and i have to wait for my friend to upload it. heehee :) stay tuned :D so that's all for today! ENJOY YOUR THURSDAY :D

" what now? aren't you satisfied enough? i'm begging you, please stop playing with my feelings. please get off from my pitiful heart and mind. you indeed have smiled at me for a lot of times these days, but today i realized, that smile of yours, IS NOT ONLY MINE. NOT mine. i'm just one of those common friends that you got. i don't mean anything to you. it's me who have been thinking too high and hoping for an empty hope. seriously, I'M TIRED. i'm tired of crying, tired of aching. TIRED OF FAKING AND PRETENDING as if there's nothing happened. I WANT YOU. if you dun feel the same way, just walk out from my heart. help me to erase you and those memories that we've had once. PLEASE. "

please stop trying to make me fell harder.

#nowplaying : Love The Way You Lie by Eminem & Rihanna.

HAHA hello guys :) did u see my photo above? i always feel like laughing everytime i saw this photo. somehow that statue really looked like me huh ? LOLs XDXD 
there were many fun things happened today. haha. I LOVE TODAY man. (: heehee. so, after school, we were staying back for Maths remedial. during the half-an-hour break, Wen Xin, Junaliz, Sabrina, Atikah, Patricia, Kiran and me went to Cheers to buy cup noodles. HAHA. bcause of that freaking food we were late for the remedial like more than half an hour?? HAHA :D but it was fun indeed. or should i say SUPER FUN? haha. luckily our maths teacher didn't scold us. what a good teacher huh? not like our bloody english teacher, who has (amazingly) gave each one of us a mechanical pencil today. not bad huh ? is it your apologize's reward after what happened yesterday? HAHA :D I DONT CARE. 
then after the remedial has ended, it was raining super heavily, and i was worried cus i didn't bring my bloody umbrella. i was thinking to take a cab home but then i realized that the distance between my school and my homestay is FREAKING BLOODY FAR, it means that the taxi will cost me to the moon. HAHAHA. so i decided to take MRT as usual. cheaper and faster. LOL. before we went back home, Junaliz, Sabrina, Patricia, Atikah, Kiran, Patricia Halim and me went to a supermarket to buy some biscuits for the old folks that we'll be visiting tomorrow. then i saw a dog's food, and the devil's side of me came out, so i told Junaliz, " eh Junaliz, just give the old folks this dog's food. HAHAHA!!" then we were laughing like mad people. she somemore added, "Yes, no need spoon. HAHAHAHA!!" i swear, the whole supermarket would heard our laughing voice. HAHA. it was really fun! then Junaliz, Atikah and me kept on mocking at Kiran with someone, a guy, of course. HAHA! so that's it. it's really a LOOONGG post huh ? haha. BYE BYE ~ :DD

" you smiled towards me again. a lot. how i wish everyday was like this. haish are you trying to make me fell harder into you? then let me tell you, CONGRATULATION, YOU'VE SUCCEED. please.. please stop it. i don't wanna be hurted and rejected in the end. you really make me confused, boy. "